When did she first realize this place felt like home? That she really felt home here? When did she really comprehend it?
It must have happened little by little. Kakra kakra, in twi. Of course there was the time in the beginning when she was simply falling love with everything and thought she'd never been so happy in her life. And of course there was the time after that, when things started to feel really hard and she started getting an idea of how little she could actually understand about how things were under the surface and how little she'd get to know about it during this short 9 months, and how little she would ever be able to understand it. And then there was the point when it all had just become her life, so that she couldn't imagine going to Finland and explaining "how it was in Ghana", because it wasn't "An Experience" or "An Adventure" or anything, anything else than her life, and how can you explain your everyday life to someone who's expecting to hear about adventures and exotic experiences?
But I guess what matters is, there were a lot of moments during all those times when she felt it would be natural for her to live here, maybe more natural than to live in Finland.
I don't know if that's enough to say she would have realized, comprehended what it meant what she was feeling. She simply felt that way.
I don't know if she still fully understands what it means to feel that way.
But what I know is, she had to come back to Finland, she had to stay there for years, and then she had to return to Ghana to really get hold of this feeling. To take it seriously. To start listening to it.
And that's another chapter of the story.
